Peter Kingsbery

My conscience is troubled
My spirit is blessed
I’m off in the wrong direction
Every chance I get.
My love is demanding
Like getting my wish
My only obsession
Could drive me to this.
I really love you
‘Cause I really need you
In spite of this world.

In spite of it all
My heart won’t hate.
Stumble and fall
And sometimes you break.

My love is eternal,
My temper is quick
Some days are a nightmare
I just cross off my list.
My aim is steady
My sights have been set
I look for perfection
Inside of this wreck.
Everyone’s happy
Beautiful and happy
I’ve seen for myself.

I’ve seen it all
All I can take,
I stumble and fall
And sometimes you break.

(Bridge)
You’re my one only wish,
I’ll make the pieces fit.

My back’s to the wall
No one’s safe.
Stumble and fall
And sometimes you break.

© 1989 Nurk Twins Music/Edwin Ellis Music
(Adm. by Nurk Twins Music) (BMI).
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Who can say when things go wrong
Just rolling with the changes?
Time is short, the list is long
Of words that I have wasted

I see my soul reaching out
I hear your voice in the clouds
Is there no straighter line
I got my heart up in air
But I begin to wonder
Will you be here in time?

How do I act differently?
I thank you for asking.
I’m stronger than I used to be,
Or can you not imagine?

I see my soul reaching out
I hear your voice in the clouds
Is there no straighter line?

(Bridge)

A much straighter line
A place to jump in.
I’m ready to fight,
I’m ready to win…

(Chorus-Out)

© 1989 Nurk Twins Music/Edwin Ellis Music
(Adm. by Nurk Twins Music) (BMI).
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I’ll always feel the same
Should ever you call my name.
I’m here if you need,
Should you get the notion.

I believed from the start
That you’d never break my heart.
My feelings remain
Better left unspoken.

Find somebody new,
Just something to hold on to,
A door will always be left open.
I’ll be looking for you,
I’m counting on you,
I’ll be looking for you
Win or lose.

I give you my word
And love that can heal the hurt,
Need I say you’ve only my devotion.
I’ll be looking for you
Win or lose.

Should the road become shaky ground
And your troubles only weigh you down,
You’ve lost your only friend in town,
It’s here you’ll find a home…

I’ll be looking for you
I’m counting on you
I’ll be looking for you
Win or lose.

I’ll always feel the same
Should ever you call my name
I’m here if you need
Should you get the notion.

© 1989 Nurk Twins Music/Edwin Ellis Music
(Adm. by Nurk Twins Music) (BMI).
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I put my life before you
My service is at your command
I’ve kicked the mud off and on again
Oh but I’ve finally made my stand
Gone for good the open vein
And going to get my works
Weeks have passed without a single grain

I’ve taken a turn
I’ve lost what I once was craving
The oil will not burn but I don’t mind
One joy bang

I’ve met “the people” once enough
Picked a lush my last time down,
Dropped the poke in the alleyway
Honey, I know that what goes ’round comes ’round
Tired of all this endless heat
Tired of most everything
You know I thought I’d never ditch these freaks

I’ve taken a turn
I’ve lost what I once was craving
The oil will not burn but I don’t mind
One joy bang

© 1989 Nurk Twins Music/Edwin Ellis Music
(Adm. by Nurk Twins Music) (BMI).
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I’d give it up and start all over if I could
Chasing back the hands of time
Praise my intuition, knock on wood,
You could never change my mind.

Though I stop a lot and wonder
How the tables have been turned
I used to think I loved you
But I still can’t really say for sure.
I’m liable to be curious
Till the day I die.

For the best years of life with you
For all our mistakes
For the sweet love I hold on to
For experience sake.

Count my blessings put my heart upon a shelf
Once is more than enough
Who would have thought that I only hurt myself
I can only take so much.

Please don’t make me out an angel
‘Cause I feel so out of place,
I just haven’t got the patience
Like a hundred other hard luck cases
Looking for a handout
Or just one more kiss goodbye.

For the best years of life with you
For all that’s at stake
For the reasons I thought I knew
For experience sake

Though I stop a lot and wonder
How the tables have been turned
I used to think I loved you
But I still can’t really say for sure.
I’m liable to be curious
Till the day I die.

For the best years of life with you
For all our mistakes
For the sweet love I hold on to
For experience sake.

© 1989 Nurk Twins Music/Edwin Ellis Music
(Adm. by Nurk Twins Music) (BMI).
All Rights Reserved.

My one and only prayer is that someday you’ll care;
My hopes, my dreams come true, my one and only you.
No one will ever know how much I love you so.
My only prayer will be someday you’ll care for me.
But it’s only make believe.

My hopes, my dreams come true, my life I’d give for you,
My heart, a wedding ring, my all, my everything.
My heart I can’t control, you rule my very soul.
My only prayer will be someday you’ll care for me,
But, it’s only make believe.

People see us everywhere;
They think I really care.
But myself I can’t deceive.
I know it’s only make believe.

My one and only prayer is that someday you’ll care;
My hopes, my dreams come true, my one and only you.
No one will ever know how much I love you so.
My hopes, my prayers, my schemes, my all, my everything.
It’s only make believe.

© 1958, renewed 1986 Tree Pub. Co., Inc.
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I’d settle for a strand of hair
Lying on a pillow case.
Just one, to understand
Why I can’t sleep.
If I could find a cigarette
Burning in an ashtray
That would be enough
Proof for me,
That would be enough.

Hunting down a killer
I’m working out the truth.
Hunting down a killer
But I haven’t got a clue.
I haven’t got a clue.

If I could catch your silhouette
Moving behind closed blinds
I’m sure I’d find another
Moving jointly.
I would take an honest man
That fumbles for an alibi
If I believed he just might be,
If I believed…

(Chorus)

I will find those illusive hands
That tear at the insides
Of some pitiful man.
Oh, so handsome
So much that it hurts,
With hands that seize and illegally search.

(Chorus)

© 1989 Nurk Twins Music/Edwin Ellis Music
(Adm. by Nurk Twins Music) (BMI).
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I’ve seen your progress
Stamped out on a bill
You don’t look hungry
Only more fat for th kill
Where is the time we spent
It seemed so real
Guess I was mistaken

I thought your world might be worth knowing
‘Cause you take it like a man
No I can’t conceal the wounds you’ve opened
Any more than I could understand

No matter how I try
I can’t fault your success
Makers of their destiny
Must always deal so
Close to the vest
Take it before it’s gone
And listen good
Just in case you’ve forgotten

I forced you up to keep from crawling
When you did not have a chance
I can’t blame you for not recalling
Any more than I could understand

I knew the risk that I was taking
That I would not try again
I can’t believe the life you’re chasing
Any more than I could understand

© 1989 Nurk Twins Music/Edwin Ellis Music
(Adm. by Nurk Twins Music) (BMI).
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Bad decisions, my adventures
Some have faded,
Some I choose to keep,
The past is crowded
With quite a lot I’m not too proud of.
But I could never feel ashamed,
That someone helped me through the changes.

I’ve been tempted
I’ve been cradled
When I’ve needed someone
I’ve been careless
When I’m able
This won’t be my first confession.

In my conscience, in my confusion
I’m much better,
Drifting off to sleep,
No more hurting,
But what’s the pleasure not worth doing?
I’m paid up on this bill of goods
I’ve talked to you more than I should have.

(Chorus)

My confession’s just the truth
I can’t afford to lose you now
I’ve got so many things I’d like to say
But I’m lost and I’m so afraid.

(Chorus)

© 1989 Nurk Twins Music/Edwin Ellis Music (Adm. for Edwin Ellis Music by Nurk Twins Music) (BMI)/Anatagonism Music (Adm. for Anatagonism Music by The Fitzgerald-Hartley Company) (ASCAP)
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Suspicion’s breeding here
The town’s going insane.
It’s like a roundup
Boarding people on a cattle train.

Anything you can’t stop
Paranoia is a remedy.
We can do anything we want
Hiding out in Owens Valley.

Full moon over Manzanar
A little piece of the Rising Sun
We’ll make a brand new start
And wait for peace to come.

Ah, but I love my country
I am native born.
Are there enough of us,
To take the world by storm?

(Chorus)

And wait for peace to come
Without a cause between us
Until this war is won,
We’ve got our pride to keep us.
There is no pride.

(Chorus)

© 1989 Nurk Twins Music/Edwin Ellis Music
(Adm. by Nurk Twins Music) (BMI).
All Rights Reserved.

No such thing, I’m sure you’ve mistaken me.
If I’m your man, then give a last embrace.
Wish me well or help me solve this mystery,
I’ve taken my fill and packed it all into one suitcase.
Any other life,
Any other way.

Don’t you worry about me
Or try to change how things are.
You’ve got to believe
That we’re just worlds apart.

Can’t talk now, and silence is too much to bear.
No great loss, but everything to gain.
Here’s your home, I can lay down anywhere.
As time goes on, it seems like a fair exchange.
Any other life.
Any other way.

Don’t you worry about me
It’s all gone much too far
You’ve got to believe
That we’re just worlds apart.

© 1989 Nurk Twins Music/Edwin Ellis Music
(Adm. by Nurk Twins Music) (BMI).
All Rights Reserved.